Why did I have to take the first step in getting to know you? Why did I want to know you better than I already did? what happened along the way that made me fall in love with you? You opened my heart after it had been locked up all my life, but you left my heart open, with a hole in it. Am I just lying to myself? I keep convincing myself that I have gotten over you, that we can get back to becoming normal friends once again, but is that reality or just another trick to get hurt by you all over again? If it is reality, why is it that whenever I reminiscise our happy memories: the first time we met, our first msn conversation, our first sms, the first and probably last time we went out together, tears fall out of my eyes so uncontrollably that even I don't have the capability to control my own emotions? I keep telling myself to be strong, that I can get over you well, that we can become friends once again, but why am I still allowing my emotions to get the better of me? I had a dream yesterday, that we went out to the exact same place and did the exact same things together once again, only this time, you were holding my hand. If it is reality that I have gotten over you, why do I still dream of you, and think of you, and worry for you in every aspect of your life, when I know that there's no meaning to it? why is it that I link every little thing that happens in my life back to you? Why do I think of you at every moment of the day? I think the fact is indeed that I haven't gotten over you, despite everything. People say that one can never stop loving someone, one can only learn how to live without that special someone; People say that we leave someone not because we stop loving him or her, it's because we know that the someone will be a lot happier without us. I promise, I'll get over you, and even though I will never ever be able to stop loving you, I will erase all the pain you caused me. It's really amazing in a way that you yourself aren't even clear of the pain you've caused me, but no matter what, I love you. Even though I've never told anyone of this fact, I really do. It's only too bad you don't.