I really hope all this can end. Why do I have to act like I'm happy, when inside I'm actully dying from all the pain? Why is it that I'm able to tell others to look at life positively, and be brave, but yet, I'm unable to do any of them myself? All that I'm capable of is running and hiding from reality. I don't want to do this anymore. I want to end this. Now. I've overestimated my capability, I'm much weaker than I originally thought I was. I can't do it. I have to leave, before the pain starts to hurt more.\

(THIS IS ME A FEW DAYS AGO)

I can get over you. I am. So you don't have to worry. So you don't have to avoid me. Cos I'm able to control my emotions, and I'll be strong. Thank you for being the one who opened my heart after so long. And yes, on a side note, Thank you for being the one who shut me out for such a long while too. But all that no longer matters, cos I have decided to be strong. And face reality. Just remember that no matter what, I love you. Yes, I do, even though I have never told you so.

(THIS IS ME TODAY)

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